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Lessons learned
Don't bring up such things like
Trauma, PTSD and depression
Cover your mouth, your lip is bleeding
Everyone sees it don't gotta say it
Blood dripping down from where you bit too hard
The burn on your chest stinging
From where you dragged that hot needle
Skin rising and spall veins burning red
This is a pain I control, nothing else works
I wish alcohol helped but it doesn't
I leave the needle and lighter out
Wishing... Someone could stop it
The end blackened and warped
Cheap metal, gotta get better Steele
I'm so weak and I'm not getting better
Made my therapist mad when I said I hated social workers
Made my best friend mad when I said I hated Christians
I deserve to hurt, to feel this slicing hot pain
What's another scar for a stupid bitch like me?
No one wants to talk to me and when they do
I have nothing real to say, drowning in memories
Got nothing to do all day, wish I would just kill myself
Everyone would be better if I did
My mind is warped like the needle in my coffee table and nothing helps
Trauma, PTSD and depression
Cover your mouth, your lip is bleeding
Everyone sees it don't gotta say it
Blood dripping down from where you bit too hard
The burn on your chest stinging
From where you dragged that hot needle
Skin rising and spall veins burning red
This is a pain I control, nothing else works
I wish alcohol helped but it doesn't
I leave the needle and lighter out
Wishing... Someone could stop it
The end blackened and warped
Cheap metal, gotta get better Steele
I'm so weak and I'm not getting better
Made my therapist mad when I said I hated social workers
Made my best friend mad when I said I hated Christians
I deserve to hurt, to feel this slicing hot pain
What's another scar for a stupid bitch like me?
No one wants to talk to me and when they do
I have nothing real to say, drowning in memories
Got nothing to do all day, wish I would just kill myself
Everyone would be better if I did
My mind is warped like the needle in my coffee table and nothing helps
Published 27th Aug 2020
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27th Aug 2020 2:24am
27th Aug 2020 7:02pm
Really raw. Spall is a word I don't often see. I hear you. "The thing about having a mental illness is that people expect you to behave as if you don't" From the movie Joker. That hit me hard, having lived with bipolar for decades and arriving where most bipolars do, scorched earth, keeping everyone away, so we don't have to feel ashamed.
31st Aug 2020 3:18am
Anonymous
- Edited 19th Sep 2020 4:45pm
2nd Sep 2020 5:49pm
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4th Sep 2020 4:45am
Oh Blue, you convey so many strong emotions in your pieces but this one has a whole new depth of it's own.
Hope you're doing well and thank you for sharing.
Hope you're doing well and thank you for sharing.
10th Sep 2020 5:36pm
Your poetry is powerful, B.
I'd buy your book and keep it on the shelf above my desk.
I'd buy your book and keep it on the shelf above my desk.
Anonymous
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13th Sep 2020 00:08am
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