Suicidal But Afraid Of Dying

I'm afraid of Dying but I also am Suicidal
I'm afraid of unknown puzzle of death
Scared of the silence and the solitude
How is one suicidal but afraid of Dying

Leaving all my loved ones with pain and heartache
Trying to escape my suffering and torment
Inches from slitting my wrists but just can't do it
I'm fucking crazy being suicidal but afraid of Dying

Scared of the darkness and the cold
Scared of never hearing music again
Scared of never seeing the sunset again
Scared of dying but I'm suicidal

After dying just being placed six feet in the ground
A stone with my name but not word about my pain
A families grievance saying they wished they had known
They don't have to worry I'm suicidal but afraid of Dying

I'll continue suffering and keep on crying
Pretending that my insides aren't crumbling
Hiding behind a forced smile and caked on make-up
I'll continue being suicidal but afraid of Dying
Written by Countrygirl96
Author's Note
Another poem about my struggle with depression
All writing remains the property of the author. Don't use it for any purpose without their permission.
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