Love Me Forever

Can you love me forever, Yes my love, with all my heart yes. I will love you until they lay my soul to rest. I can love you forever. Put my words to test.  It's nothing you could do to make me love you less.  Although you left me broken and alone. I still love you from my skin to my bones. You can't block my heart, like you blocked your phone. My heart cried out for you in the cold streets I roamed. Left with a small bag. Rode a train and made the streets my home. Nolonger knowing the softness of our bed. I sat in vacant a building, with thoughts of suicide in my head. Which should I choose for death, drugs or lead. And wondered to myself, how would you feel when they found me dead. I wonder if you really loved me or was I mislead. Yet my spirit would not let die, so I pushed ahead. Took the little money I had, and placed it in the hand of the pusher man. Getting high to escape my feelings was such a euphoric plan. Yet I still loved you as I held that bag of slow death in my hand. Cold and broken with no place to go ,tears in my eyes. As I faced the cold and the snow. Wishing I had a warm cup of your coffee.  Instead I had a monkey on my back, and I couldn't seem to get him off me. Yet I still was in love with you. And it was killing me softly.  So dying was my life mission. Leaving the shelter in the morning heading to the soup kitchen. Dam I got to get some bread for this monkey I can feel him bitching. The devil in my mind I could hear him pitching. Withdrawals ravishing my body. My stomach aching twitching.  I am losing my sanity, I am not feeling well, I spot two police men on the corner. Listen ya'll are looking for me take me to jail. The streets and drugs are a living hell. Put the cuffs on me place me in a cell. One of the officer look at me and said well.  We will call you a bus. Because of the covid19, your charges are not serious enough. The mental hospital dam a man can't go to jail, dam times are rough. And I stilled loved you forever. Stop loving you never. So that didn't work so I moved on. A sniff of herion here or there, and the pain was gone. But that was only a temporary fix. I lost the woman I love, my home ain't this some shit. I am freezing in this cold winter rain sanking deeper into this bottomless pit. I said to God I can't take this more. This suffering I can nolonger endure. I said you gave me a chance before, I beg of you  give me one more. I said I promise to change, and clean up my act. Become a new man and never look back. But I will continue to love her forever and that's a fact. I promise her my love forever and it must stay intact. So God must have smiled on my soul. Showed me mercy and pity. Now I was on my way to New York City. I thanked the Lord of my salvation. First I went to detox and then rehabilitation. The pressure was off me so I had time to reflect on my situation. self reflection and self preservation. And I started to focus on myself. And said how can I love you forever if I can't love myself. I looked in the mirror at my temple. And I was so ashamed I was so losted in drugs and the wrong perceptions of love, I forgot my name. I said dam my life and happiness is important, this is not no game. So I took that love I had for you. And I loved myself. I am clean from all poisons and love my health because it's my wealth.  Yet my love for you still endures. Yes I I will love you forever, and I will love myself forever more.