WHAT YOU SHOWN ME ISN'T LOVE

How can someone hurt you and still say that they love you, yet destroy the very existences of your heart and soul leaving behind fragments, tormenting your spiritual soul without caring how you feel deep down inside of your heart. For how can they do to you what you couldn't do to them because, unlike them you respect the love that you've shown to them out of honor and devotion. Yet here I am alone and afraid feeling abandoned by the very one who, violated my heart destroying the depth of the love that has become lost within the turmoil of my life. For even as I desperately try to put my life back together I am still tormented, by the memories that constantly cry from my eyes as the tears stains upon my face. Yet subconsciously I still can't escape from the madness and insanity, that seems to reach deeper than words can truly say for how can one ignore, what happen with the process of the pain heavy upon your heart. Yet as I stumble and fall I get back up and dust myself off, and take my wrongful place amongst the many broken shattered souls feeling abandoned and alone. As the hurt by those I trusted burns like amber's, from a midnight camp fire infuse with my heart and soul and mind, pretending to be wood on a fire to burn. Yet I am determined to fight back the tears from my eyes, as I hold myself together cause I know I am truly worthy of honor and devotion and respect. As I am deserving of love and affection with understanding from the right kind of man who deserves the right kind of woman. For just because you didn't or couldn't see what I have to offer in a relationship, doesn't mean I have to give up on finding the right kind of man, to truly understand and realize that I am unworthy of his love. As a woman that wants to be love as I am a woman still strong and intelligent, and proud of being a real and rare kind of woman that any real and rare man would want to explore. The deep subconsciousness of my mind and the deepness, within the depth of my heart and soul as I silently reemerge through the storm. Even more stronger than I've ever been due, to the absence of not truly being treated with love and understanding with devotional honesty and truth and trust.