I HATE YOU

"I hate you!"...
I said.
 
But did i mean It?.....
 
Regretting the moment
We met
 
Degrading my love for you
By demanding life
To reset....
 
I hate you!.....
I lied....
 
But I beg to mean it....
 
With every raising of ur hands
I cried,
counting every tears until the sunrise....
 
Does this make you happy my love?
Beating me  
Without care..
 
I try to make you love me
I tried to be good this year
 
But still it made no deference
You're always back
Just being you.....
 
I want to forget us
But tell me,
Why it's like the hardest thing to do...
 
I hate the way I love you
It's like choosing to love these painful and ugly scars.  
 
I'm so weak by ur touch,
So weak....
I indulge in simply
Just being lost.....
 
I hate the way I feel
And I hate loving it...
 
To be lost in your lips
I'm trying
Not!
To be free from it..........
 
Aahh.....
 
It's like....
 Everytime,
I feel wounded
I hope to see scars,
 I'm reminded that,
Your just who and what
 I want...
 
I hate you