Monster

My life I once knew has been torn apart and nothing but pain has consumed my heart. Drug addictions is all you would pursue creating a horrendous monster out of you. This monster has completely taken over you and your no longer the man I once loved and once knew. This monsters has created your immortality completely taking over your personality giving you nothing less than a psychopathic mentality leaving us with such a painful fatality forever living life in unimaginable agony. Everything started changing consequences from your own actions everyone else insanely you'd be blameing. This monster is always denying then lying and seems like fighting you found so satisfying. You found tears from my eyes gratifying while I found it completely mortifying. Our life was dying. Your eyes turned black and cold you could see in your eyes you no longer had a soul. Where did the man I once loved go.
Hes completely lost his way and his soul I'm unable to save. Day after day I would pray and I would pray but this monster just wont go away, keeping me afraid its forever here to stay, and all because of this monster drugs has create. As I recall Everday you would down a whole eight ball and then throw me around like some ragdoll. Kick me Punch me without a care at all. My face you've shattered like it didnt even matter and many ribs you have broke. Or how about the many times with your Hands around my throat my feet dangling as I choked Theres no mistake of the disgrace this monster has create. But is this truly my fate? A living hell nightmare I just can't awake. Can anyone relate? Will Someone please help me escape? relieve me of all this heartache? I cant seem to find any solution leaving me with such confusion any kind of help this monster is refusing. I'm Wishing I was just stuck i some sort of delusion but I've come to a conclusion all these drugs he continues to be using will result in my absolute dissolution my boo I'm forever loosing for this monster has completely consumed him.

~Jess D.