Up & Down

To many adderall, on a free for all, overall I had a ball.
fuck, here comes the fall...
Low dopamine making my skin crawl. I donít wanna go through withdrawal.
Give the devil his due, I always bit off more than I could chew.
Addiction left me black and blue, I canít pull through, canít paddle this canoe.
Wishing for a re-do, what did I get myself into...
shoulda never blew that first line, ever since my lifeís been on a steady decline.
Iím twenty nine and I canít feel fine without 100mg, maybe thatís a sign.
But once my nose hits that line...
baby Iím on cloud nine, come rain or shine, I feel redesigned.
I swear I can take on man kind, canít knock me off my grind. In the right state of mind.
I feel great, I can create, stay up late, high heart rate, first out the gate.
Just donít ask me to mediate...
But the come down makes me wanna drown, canít smile, only frown, I lie around,
donít feel like going out on the town...
Feeling like a slug, gotta call the plug. I need my fucking drug.
Crush a few up and here comes the rush, my face feels flush maybe looks a little blush.
I do this all on the hush hush...
Eyes dilated, no longer feel inflated, feeling animated. I love being stimulated.
You say I gotta addiction like itís a conviction and itís causing the family friction.
I got this under control, the pills make me feel whole, isnít that lifeís goal?
Without it Iím just a lost soul, who hateful...
So Iím grateful for the amphetamine taking with caffeine,
makes me feel like a machine, crave nicotine...
Iím not ready to get clean
Written by Lo_bedda (Lo Lo)
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