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Throw away kiss

Staring off into a vast empty void          
left by a man who I hadn't a clue      
how badly I wanted until he showed me          
The intensity within that desire      
he blossomed inside me,         
burns for him         
Even at this very moment          
I suspect it always will          
I'm aflame for him, always          
Reading his words          
slays me through to my very core          
I fight like hell the immediate and immense impulse to run after him until my lungs scream out in agony, begging him to make me his      
To have him possess me and me alone.              
The uniquely physical response to merely his words has my poor body shivering all over              
Desperate, aching and utterly ashamed.              
How will I ever be the same?....          
"Please remain slightly within my orbit if I need you"    
My pathetic heart begs me to say,                
Luckily my pride cements my lips.              
My own disgrace mine to keep            
What's left secretly known is that I need him           
with every breath I take.              
My pussy is attuned solely to him, alone.              
(Traitor that she is.)              
I've spent more lonely moments than I care to admit pleasuring my needy cunt to him,              
only now to pay the price    
He's savvy, my obsession and my heart's hurt      
I have to forget him      
I should forget him      
I want to forget him      
I wish I never met him      
Knowing better              
I still fail my poor shattered soul's obvious expectation    
—However destroyed              
I thank him for the kindness and generosity of thought, contemptible in it's absolute        
I take his last throw away kiss
       ...... and save it in my pocket      
Written by Bluevelvete
Published | Edited 22nd Sep 2020
Author's Note
A tale as old as time. Love lost.
I selected honest criticism, just be kind... But I think I can take it
Best, Blu
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