Why?

Please don't tell me it's over
You can't right now,I'll refuse to hear it
My life is extremely boring and insignificant
So much that it actually hurts me to think about it
I can't deal with this group being over
I wish I could cry but I feel numb
I struggle to stay above water,above my emotions
Something I've learned after a while
I just need to keep busy but its such a struggle
I need a job but I'm still not happy
Because they're always on my mind
Those people I used to know a while ago
And I don't understand how they could leave me
As if I wouldn't feel like something is missing
I don't want to forget those people
They brought me hope,a happiness and light inside
And now I just feel hollow although I hide it well
I'm a good person now,strong and kind
I have more control over my emotions
That gets better every day
But I still miss you more than you could fathom
I wish you didn't hate me and leave me alone
You've got to be out there somewhere
Please don't give up on me