Awake

I lay awake
and
I wonder
and
Think what if
and
What could be

Am I dreaming
or
Am I screaming

Is it stay the course
or
Flee and run

My heart has a steady pace as if nothing is wrong
Yet my mind wonders wanting to verify just how strong is the bond
My souls is content as it is driven by the heart
Yet my mind wants to control it all

What is this
and
How can it be

Based solely on printed text
Sight and sound unseen
Is this really bigger than just lingering lust
But just what could it be???
This calm is a very mysterious thing

Is it a commandment
or
Just a demand but never an unanswered request

Sight and sound unseen
and
Unheard what does this really mean

Show me what I can't see nor hear
Because I am not sure

Should I want more than what I feel?