I've been trying to do the "right thing"

 
 
  it's like you literally have to want to be the center of attention one way or another; whether in denial or not.... this is the social conditioning from where I'm sitting; frustrated with what comes with being human; I've been trying to do "the right thing"; to be "decent"; to attract "decent".... it's as if your personality counts for nothing; finding someone to chill with is damn near impossible.... so much indifference....this place is so ridiculous *sighs* smh