People wonder why

People wonder why
Why I don’t speak much
People wonder why
Why I don’t or choose not to interact with others
People wonder why
Why I distance myself from people when they start getting close.
People wonder why
Why I‘d just like to disappear from the face of this earth
All my actions are never for no reason
All my emotions are getting hard and they just deepen
Am I a horrible person will I ever stop fighting these demons
For the people I love can I change the way I treat them
Probably not right cause people never change
I’m feeling like I’m making a difference but In my mind it’s all still the same
Hurt guilt and nothing but pain.