Next to me too

I dont mind the things I've been through  
Its lead me right to you
I know it's not good some of the things I've done
The past is where it should be and it cant be undone
Now I've just painted a picture of the future and it's a portrait of you
I'm the biggest fan of who you are and things you do
Every word I speak theres an essence of you're name
You're a beacon of hope in a world that's insane
I know the way I've treated people I know the things I've said
I know I've been the toxic one I know I've caused dred
I know I've been nasty and I know I've passed the book
But I've reaped all ive sewn and that's just my luck
But now I'm watching a film I swear you're the main part
Every frame just tugs at my heart
So I'm going to bed and I'm lying next to you
I cant explain how grateful I am that you're next to me too