Lost/bloodied/and scarred

I can’t keep doing this...
Dragging that blade across my skin...
I can’t keep living like this
Watching the people I love...

Move on to the people I trusted most
This last one got me fucked up
I loved her...
She was everything I ever wanted

But we broke up...
And now she’s dating my brother...
And to not freak out on them...
I instead walk away and...

1, 2, 3, 4,
My left arm is now covered...
I can’t stop...
I got into a fight with my brother...

He’s naive...
He’s two years younger then my ex and I...
He’s 16...
He continued to tell me nothing would happen...

But now look at what happened
The reason her and I broke up...
Was because I was jealous...
Over thought...

Think that my brother would take her from me...
Now here I am...
Living that nightmare...
I have reoccurring nightmares

Watching her leave...
Watching him take her...
Watching them...
I continue to wake up sweating...

Crying...
Waking up and grabbing that blade...
Watching the blood roll out of my arm...
Watching it drip onto the floor...

Finally calm...
Just to listen to them call me immature...
And an asshole...
When I’ve supported them 100% of the time

I’ve shown them nothing but the up most respect
Until my brother continued to fucking with her heart...
Saying that he likes her but doesn’t want a relationship
Then blaming them not getting together on me...

I had said something apparently...
when I actually went to bed early
And didn’t say anything to him til 5 am