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Quarantined
Now as the earth wakes up,
will you come back to me
I am not me anymore
You left me on the edge of oblivion
A scream frozen in my throat
I do not know how it arose
More and more inclined to the fact that somehow
I did something wrong
So many lost moments
I know it will be easier
without pointless tantrums
You took my heart and
I'm feeling so alone without you
I have nowhere to go and I still feel quarantined
Sheltered from your love
For me there is only tears until dawn
Stars shine until morning without me
You always wanted to stay among them
But apparently this is not fate
and we made heaven silently doubt us
You know I will owe you
Whatever you need
You raised me like a pure spring
And you promised not to leave me
That you and I are only at the beginning of a dream
Take my heart and my soul
I'm so alone and I want to die
I have nowhere to go and I am still quarantined
Sheltered from my dreams
will you come back to me
I am not me anymore
You left me on the edge of oblivion
A scream frozen in my throat
I do not know how it arose
More and more inclined to the fact that somehow
I did something wrong
So many lost moments
I know it will be easier
without pointless tantrums
You took my heart and
I'm feeling so alone without you
I have nowhere to go and I still feel quarantined
Sheltered from your love
For me there is only tears until dawn
Stars shine until morning without me
You always wanted to stay among them
But apparently this is not fate
and we made heaven silently doubt us
You know I will owe you
Whatever you need
You raised me like a pure spring
And you promised not to leave me
That you and I are only at the beginning of a dream
Take my heart and my soul
I'm so alone and I want to die
I have nowhere to go and I am still quarantined
Sheltered from my dreams
Published 1st Jun 2020
| Edited 29th Sep 2020
Author's Note
Just an expression of my fear of abandonment.
All writing remains the property of the author. Don't use it for any purpose without their permission.
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1st Jun 2020 2:00am
1st Jun 2020 9:28am
1st Jun 2020 2:39am
The last four lines I completely understand. Loneliness can be hard, however tomorrow is a new day.
Yes, tomorrow is another day. This is my mind jumping forward to imagine an outcome that has not happened. Sometimes I think the worse when there is some turbulence and it weighs on me.
7th Jun 2020 12:21pm
If a man makes you feel like this then frankly its time to find a new one who'll treat you far better.
On the other hand, reading this as a metaphor for the lock down, you feel abandoned by the old way of life we all miss so dearly. You never know how good things are until its somehow no longer with you.
Or have I completely misunderstood the poem??
On a personal note, and this comes from experience, when a relationship breaks down its usually the innocent one that feels the guilt and takes the blame for everything. If this poem is based on true events then I sincerely hope you've managed to move on and heal.
XXX
On the other hand, reading this as a metaphor for the lock down, you feel abandoned by the old way of life we all miss so dearly. You never know how good things are until its somehow no longer with you.
Or have I completely misunderstood the poem??
On a personal note, and this comes from experience, when a relationship breaks down its usually the innocent one that feels the guilt and takes the blame for everything. If this poem is based on true events then I sincerely hope you've managed to move on and heal.
XXX
7th Jun 2020 3:38pm
It is both an expression of some recent relationship strife to get it out in a constructive way and a metaphor for the lockdown so I think you have understood it. On one hand things are great and on the other I am experiencing what seems to be my challenge in relationships - a stifling jealousy and controlling behavior develop. It always seems to happen sooner or later but all relationships have challenges so I guess that is mine to work through.
