Poison

I wish I could drink poison
It would explain the burn within
But mostly I wish I could poison myself
And blind myself from all that is unforgiving

I would never have to be the bigger person
because I understood your pain better than you did
so I forgive you for hurting me instead of hurting you back like a normal person would

I wish I could lie to myself
like everyone does
Be a man without morals
Why be an angel when everyone enjoys the devil

I wish I lacked the knowledge of your kiss
I can still taste the alcohol you drank before you did
hear the silence you left me with
To open a portal of doubt
where I question every smile towards me
because why would you love me?

Let's drink to that
One shot of sweet poison please
You only live once if you don't die every night
So I wish I could
Just for once
Poison myself