The Fight for My Wife

my dearest love the night I first met you, you took my breath away and made my heart skip a beat. Yes as cleaqueic as it is it truely was love at first sight. You were the woman of my dreams and the love of my life. Then I deployed to the war which I just was not mentally ready for. I was shot at twice which barely missed and that got me pissed,but I survived then I sawa friend get decapitated after his truck was hit by an IED. Later that monthI sawthe bodies of two of my best friends who were burned alive after their truck was struck by an IED and as their bodies were pulled from the truck you could see bits an peices of their flesh mekted into the seats. And then in June I hit an IED causing a TBI and my neck and back injuries. All of these things changed me from the loving and caring husband that you once knew into the sranger ass hole, monster that I am now. Through all this you have been there loving ans supporting me while I just pushed you away. As the years went byI fell deeper into that black hole causing me to throw everything we once had all away. I began talking to other women and pulling further away from you and your love. Now after losing you and everything we had I have found bits and peices of the man I was and used to be, hoping that you will come back to me.
 I'm afraid I have taken you and our love and thrown it far far away never to return. I know I have done this all to myself!! I'm no longer being self destructive and being self productive once again from this day forth I will be the man that you used to love and hopefully a little more improved. I know that I  have a lot to prove which goes without being said. I have been lost in my head and soul even felt like I was dead. Yet tbrough all of this you were still fighting for us. I know that I do not deserve you and your love and that I get on your very last nerve, But let us try to recapture what we once had from first day we met. Lets explore romance and enhance what we had and what we have. Lets find a potion to get the magic back and find that old spark to light up the dark and re-kindle our love flames. Please lets fight for our love and each other together and not apart. You and our love are worth fighting for I know that now. So let me prove the love I have for yoy now and show you that the man you once koved was lost but now I'm found and ready to fight for you, your love and everything else inbetween. I fought in a war for my country  so now it's time for me to fight a war for you and our family. That is the war of the fight for my wife.