I was too inexperienced, too naive, to fucking selfish to comprehend.
Never learning when to cease.
You end up ruining everything you touch.
Shoving it onto the horizon until it tumbles to the soil and shatters right between your fingertips.
Slipping away like sand and rolling down the crevices of your chest like nonexistent breaths of air.
My stomach felt like it was sinking, profound bottomless abyss.
Plunged into the chasm of a black ocean, riddled with lurking monsters unknown to mankind.
It was my fault, all of it.
[shameful] It felt like being stripped naked in a room full of seething strangers.
Embarrassment peeled my palms and seared my lips and tongue.
My cheeks were burnt in sorrowful pity.
- I felt sick to my stomach