STANDING WITHIN THE RAIN

As I stand within the dead of night as the hurt beats upon my heart like tons of granite stone, dropping down like slabs of shattered glass cutting me deeper than deep. Yet as I stand here looking into empty fragments of once, was our very presence of our lives floating away with each tear drop as in each drop of the rain, as it drops down upon my tear stained face. For it wasn't enough that I loved you with all my heart and soul, even though I knew I shouldn't have unshackle the depth of my heart and soul, meaning not opening the door to my heart to you. But yet beneath the deepness of my heart I trusted you, with all that I have to give from me to you in honesty and truth and trust, but yet you instead would betray me with your dishonesty and distrust and disloyalty. Yet like all things they do come to the light for you never truly did love me as I loved you, for with you there was no real intentions of communication in honesty and truth. For your commitment fell way to short while the attempt of your consistency, was filled with unconditional lies merely only just words spoken without actually actions. For they say confession of the soul is good for the heart and mind, that carries all your thoughts and emotions and feelings with the regrets and blame for not trusting your gut feeling while listening to your heart instead of your subconsciousness mind. Yet all that doesn't matter now as they are combine with the process of the suffering and heartaches, yet with the power of the pain that will give you the strength and courage. To endure the hurt that will pass through time along with the deepness of the struggle of once again trusting your heart, that you will break the chains that bound you mentally and physically and emotionally and spiritually, as this moment within the depth of the darkness of the rain. Well be your subconscious awakening as the rain is pure and simple, untouched by mankind yet bless by the heavens, to purge the depth of the heart and mind and spiritual soul even when it pertains to the mere real love of the spiritual, growth of your subconsciousness and soul.