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Half a person
We are tightly intertwined and I do not recognize
myself anymore without you
You fill a big hole in my heart and you make me happy
Still I am scared to love you so much and that without
you I will die
If we are a whole then I am only half of a person
I dedicate myself but I am dependent and it scares me
Bonnie and Clyde or Sid and Nancy,
will there be a tragic end for me
in this relationship
After each night of intense passion
The world seems so much clearer the next morning
I am beautiful with you and you make me smile
But I worry you will break my heart and then no one
will be able to fix it again
In the night we are lovers but then
sometimes we get caught in the waves and battles
Love is a perilous high and I am hopeless
while you seem so independent
You have the power to crush my hopes so easily
And I do find myself not recognizing the differences
Together it is not scary but then it is again
You feel some empty spaces in me but I am
still trying to find myself
And I cannot help but feel like I am walking
a tightrope across a gorge and will fall
to the depths below
Somehow I feel like us, this is only temporary
and it scares me
myself anymore without you
You fill a big hole in my heart and you make me happy
Still I am scared to love you so much and that without
you I will die
If we are a whole then I am only half of a person
I dedicate myself but I am dependent and it scares me
Bonnie and Clyde or Sid and Nancy,
will there be a tragic end for me
in this relationship
After each night of intense passion
The world seems so much clearer the next morning
I am beautiful with you and you make me smile
But I worry you will break my heart and then no one
will be able to fix it again
In the night we are lovers but then
sometimes we get caught in the waves and battles
Love is a perilous high and I am hopeless
while you seem so independent
You have the power to crush my hopes so easily
And I do find myself not recognizing the differences
Together it is not scary but then it is again
You feel some empty spaces in me but I am
still trying to find myself
And I cannot help but feel like I am walking
a tightrope across a gorge and will fall
to the depths below
Somehow I feel like us, this is only temporary
and it scares me
Published 16th May 2020
Author's Note
Had a big fight with my boyfriend last night and I guess it reminded how attached I can get and how temporary things can be so I am just trying to settle my thoughts.
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16th May 2020 3:14pm
Great emoting/evoking with this ... I felt it ... each line ... well poeted my poetess ...
17th May 2020 3:49am
Thank you LilDragonFly, I never expected to be called a poetess and I am so glad you thought it was done well.
18th May 2020 1:00am
18th May 2020 1:08am
Thank you Harry. I needed to vent some feelings so this one was not difficult to write. Unfortunately I am still in the midst of turbulence at the moment so this may only be the first. :(
18th May 2020 1:10am
This is very well articulated and emoted. I felt like I was right there, feelings it and exploring it with you. And I can relate so very much to that deep attachment. And I know the severe pain that comes when it finally ends... I sure hope you don’t have to endure that pain. But you are fortunate to have awareness now of the unhealthy bond that has been established. Keep writing!! I look forward to reading more
Thank you Julia for your thoughts and feedback.
Anyway I think we will work things out. I hope so but there is a new level of jealousy and possessiveness that is causing me a lot of anxiety at the moment and Ironically spending time on DUP or other things seems to have been a catalyst to that. But I don't want to be afraid to do other stuff. Maybe being together so much recently with the virus and all is part of it.
Anyway I think we will work things out. I hope so but there is a new level of jealousy and possessiveness that is causing me a lot of anxiety at the moment and Ironically spending time on DUP or other things seems to have been a catalyst to that. But I don't want to be afraid to do other stuff. Maybe being together so much recently with the virus and all is part of it.
18th May 2020 11:08pm
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19th May 2020 2:42pm
The writing reinforces the anxiety expressed as it jumps from thought to thought and feeling to feeling. You may not have planned it that way, this being an impromptu creation, but it demonstrates how you can structure a poem in such a way that reader can immefiately feel your experience without having to stop and put themselves in your shoes.
Hopefully things get settled between you both.
Hopefully things get settled between you both.
19th May 2020 11:55pm
I did not plan it that way but I really like the way you have described the flow. Thank you for taking the time to give me some detailed feedback, it is helpful for me to know what structures work. Also, thanks for hoping that things settle down - I appreciate that a lot.
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21st May 2020 7:35pm
I don’t know where to began. Love is complex, love is simple. When two people are involved their is the simple and the complex of love that takes place. Love is emotional but love is not based on emotions because when the emotions runs out what do you have. Being vulnerable and I’m learning this as we speak is a strength and not a weakness. Vulnerability allows you to be open, be true to yourself and and allow you to learn and grow. Their Will always be differences in relationships but their should also be compromising and complementing. Each heart has t I learn about the others heart otherwise it won’t work.
22nd May 2020 2:48am
Thank you for the detailed feedback. Love is definitely complex and I am trying very hard to make it work.
28th May 2020 8:27am
Echo Shakespearian Sweet. This is a healthy let out of thoughts, can't help thinking he should see this to understand how you feel.
28th May 2020 5:35pm
3rd Jun 2020 9:07pm
Love doesn't come with a user manual, neither does her wicked twin sister, Lust. Just one of those things in life we have to figure out by ourselves unguided, though admittedly, its way easier when tackled in companionship with another who's soul has the missing pieces to your own, and visa versa.
Relationships can be challenging at times. If the love is real, the lower moments can be worth the while in the long run. (I know from experience.)
You've turned a moment of pain into something beautiful and powerful. This is the nature of art, and you have the gift.
XXX
Relationships can be challenging at times. If the love is real, the lower moments can be worth the while in the long run. (I know from experience.)
You've turned a moment of pain into something beautiful and powerful. This is the nature of art, and you have the gift.
XXX
3rd Jun 2020 10:20pm
I enjoy reading your comments. It would seem I will always be faced with a particular challenge in relationships but I will always try my hardest to make things work.
15th Feb 2021 2:00am
15th Feb 2021 2:26pm
Honesty is always important so I am glad you see it. :) Always thinking which often to leads to more plight. :) The story is always unfolding... Thank you so much for the comment Poetspeak. Like!
