LOVE SOMEONE LIKE ME  

Here I am as I am a woman of many things that can be seen, through the depth of your own subconsciousness only if you would open up your eyes, and not see me as I am nothing more than  a woman in your eyes. For I am a strong woman of intelligence and knowledge and experience, that came from wisdom of trials and tribulations as a woman who understands, her self value and self worth as in the deepness of my mind and heart. Who has endured many trials and tribulations of life some good some bad. For I have known love from the depth of the heart and soul, as I have felt the hurt and pain along with the suffering at the hands of loving someone, so very much who betrayed me with dishonesty and distrust. For now even when you look into my eyes that holds the key to unlocking my soul, what do you truly know of what I have been and gone through within the depth of my life. For what part of me do you want to explore of my world, that I hide deep within the subconsciousness of my mind. That reminds me of the life I had to learn to endure just because I was blinded, by the love that really wasn't love at all only a mere mirage of disillusions made up of lies. For how much more are you willing to justify your actions and reason, that you want to be with someone like me when you don't understand, why I am the way that I am so afraid even over protective of my own heart and soul. Till I am  afraid even of my own shadow to even recognize that you or someone can love me as I am a woman damage but yet not broken, for what draws you so close to me even though I try to push you away from me. As I blame you for the feelings that has built up over time, that have alter the state of my heart and soul and mind, even the deepness of my feelings for love which has changed right before my eyes. For how can you love someone so much, that has been broken and damaged by the very thing you seek and search within me as it is called love. For you say to me it is not our past that foretell our future together, but it is the steps we take together through the stairway of life, that sets the tone of the journey and travel and walk. For you said to me there is always a reason to exist as it is definitely necessary to make a change, for not everyone is out to hurt you for there are those who want to truly  love you unconditionally as in heart and mind and spiritual soul.