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Take me back to 2004
Authors Note: This poem contains references to self harm, drug and alcohol abuse, sex and sexual assault, so if it's not your kind of read, don't read it. - Indie
Take me back to 2004
When I didn’t want this life anymore
Where I cared too much about getting high
And not enough about living life
It was all about the latest escape
As though I could forget I’d ever been raped
Cut the skin so I could watch it bleed
Drink myself stupid and smoke too much weed
And the reflection in the mirror, it might be me
But I’m so wasted I can’t quite see
And I don’t know what I’m doing here
Drinking it up so I can forget the fear
Because we’re all just a bunch of whores
Totally fucked up and beyond bored
With a life that scars from the inside out
And no one’s there to allay our doubts
‘Cause sex never leads to love
And it’s never quite enough
To feel like I’m alive
When in these vices I only hide
And I want to say I would take it back
Pretend like those days weren’t hazy and black
Pretend like they never happened at all
And my fists weren’t bruised from punching walls
But now, I don’t know who I’d be
If those people had never fucked with me
‘Cause those days are gone
And a part of me feels like I’ve won
‘Cause I’m still alive
And God knows I survived
All my self-destructive ways
To still be alive today
So take me back to 2004
When I didn’t want this life anymore
‘Cause sometimes I need those memories
To remind me of all the things that didn’t kill me
Indie Adams 2012
Take me back to 2004
When I didn’t want this life anymore
Where I cared too much about getting high
And not enough about living life
It was all about the latest escape
As though I could forget I’d ever been raped
Cut the skin so I could watch it bleed
Drink myself stupid and smoke too much weed
And the reflection in the mirror, it might be me
But I’m so wasted I can’t quite see
And I don’t know what I’m doing here
Drinking it up so I can forget the fear
Because we’re all just a bunch of whores
Totally fucked up and beyond bored
With a life that scars from the inside out
And no one’s there to allay our doubts
‘Cause sex never leads to love
And it’s never quite enough
To feel like I’m alive
When in these vices I only hide
And I want to say I would take it back
Pretend like those days weren’t hazy and black
Pretend like they never happened at all
And my fists weren’t bruised from punching walls
But now, I don’t know who I’d be
If those people had never fucked with me
‘Cause those days are gone
And a part of me feels like I’ve won
‘Cause I’m still alive
And God knows I survived
All my self-destructive ways
To still be alive today
So take me back to 2004
When I didn’t want this life anymore
‘Cause sometimes I need those memories
To remind me of all the things that didn’t kill me
Indie Adams 2012
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