No Proper Closure

Screw closure because every time we talk
I get sucked back into past memories and
Know why I fell in love with you. You walk
Me back to a place where I would hand

You my heart all over again. I wish that we
Could go back sometimes when it was so
Much simpler and lighter. I wanted to see
Our night conversations and hot tub glow

Again. I picture it like how it was supposed
To be before the big blowups and walking
Away from you. My insecurities bulldozed
Any hope for a brighter future, talking

As if everything was going to be okay
And I had to be okay, not for you, but for
Myself as the world continued to sway
Side to side. I lost my sight of the shore

Along the way as I did not care that I was
Sinking. I was waiting for you to stand on
Your own two feet as the shine and buzz
Wore off. Some of those memories, gone

As some are under lock and key, never to
Be spoken about ever again. But I never
Said any of that. I am getting to know you
Once again like you never saw the clever,

Kind, shy or laughing girl I once was. I fell
Too hard and fast. I fell, not even knowing
You taught me how to stop trying to dwell
On things of the past. You were showing

Me love comes in all forms and lessons.
Over time this closure’s pain will lessen.