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Projections

Projections
  
I am not who you say I am    
I am not a game player  
Games are for children    
And I’m a mature, grown ass woman, with better shit to do with her time.  
   
I am not who you say I am  
I am not a ho  
Don’t mistake me for the girls you surround yourself with,    
I have a level of class and sophistication that even their six inch heels couldn’t elevate them to.    
Just remember baby, “you can’t turn a ho into a housewife”    
and we both know I’m gonna make a damn good wife.    
   
I am not who you say I am  
I am not a manipulator    
I don’t treat people like puppets to be pulled and controlled by the strings of my dysfunction to fulfill my narcissistic needs and create the melodramatic charade I call my life.    
And I don’t look around me or behind me and see a bunch of broken, bruised, and used up people who are either long gone, holding on out of fear, or still imprisoned by my false promises and charm.    
   
I am not who you say I am  
I am not a whore  
Never have been, never will be. Period.    
I don’t base my self worth on the number of toys I can acquire and have displayed on my shelf.    
See I know my worth and I don’t hand that shit out at a discounted price.    
I understand that the most valuable toys are the ones in the box  
And their value decreases every time they get taken out and played with.  
Therefore, I’d rather be rare, highly sought after, and a collectors edition    
than be tossed out or donated to charity.    
   
I am not who you say I am    
You must have me mistaken for someone else  
But here’s a mirror...  
I think you’ll find the person you’ve been searching for...
Written by Lazy_Dead (.Julia.)
Published | Edited 31st Jul 2020
Author's Note
I wrote this the first time I left a very abusive relationship. When dealing with narcissistic abuse, you get smothered by their projections and this poem was my way of standing up to some of the awful things he inaccurately insisted I was.
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