The song I’m writing

I don’t know what to write
But I know it’s about you
I can’t form any rhythm
Cause it’s outta the blue

You came into my life
With warning or surprise
I met you through my brother
And to myself I formed lies

Like this is what you wanted
This what is needed
Come to find out
It would leave me defeated

I shoulda been myself
But instead I hid
My heart was running miles
And for you just a bit

now I’m stuck here wondering
Thinking it couldn’t be true
That I was just acting
Not really thinking of you

I sent and sent
And never looking back
Not realizing what I said
The love is what I lacked

And now that I’m alone
It doesn’t feel quite right
With you on my mind
All day and all night

I can’t get you out
Of my head each day
With our conversations
on a constant replay

I asked the same questions
Over and over
The fact that I did that
Leaves me to wonder

How could you love me
Why did you stay
I know it was annoying
Why didn’t you walk away

 I never wanted to hurt you
I just wanted to be there
Now I feel like a villain
Just sitting in his lair

Thinking of how im going to get you back
I feel like a train coming off it’s track
My mind is unstable
But with you girl, I’m able

Able to see clearly
And actually be happy
No longer have to force a smile
And hate music that’s sappy

Cause being with you
I have no regrets
Hoping you see
After all my repents

The constant reminders
That this isn’t going to work
With the fear in the back
Doing nothing but lurk

I try and I try
My hardest each day
Concealing my emotions
Holding my fears at bay