Moving On

Today, I finally let go
Of some memories
That were part of the virtual world
After failing to recover my old accounts in gmail and facebook

Most of my personal poems were there
Which showed my vulnerability over the past years
That were penned from the core of my heart
On many depressing periods of my life in the past

I regretted not having kept them in my notes
Those were written at the time
When I was just beginning to discover my interest and love for poetry about nine years ago
At a time When inspiration easily came to me
Where all the poems were woven
From the things I felt and saw around me that I find meaningful and resonant with my life

When I look back at those times
I realized those were times of self discovery
Of understanding my nature as a person
Of making meaningful friendships and connections beyond my physical reality

It was also a time when I was being my true authentic self
Naive and ignorant of the deceptions and lies of the virtual world
The world of phantoms and illusions

I was trusting with people I met
Unknowing of their real nature and character
I have burned bridges and cut ties  with friends I knew for years
After learning their narcicistic tendencies
They leave scars on some wounds in my heart

Facebook has taught me not to be too trusting again
To be wary of those who are too nice and sweet that you can see through their mask
But it has also thought me many wonderful things
I found few treasured friends that I can let into my real world

Today I tried to retrieve my old facebook account after deactivating it for over a year
Just to get back those poems and writings that has meaning to me
They reflect my inner world at the time
Which was punctuated by confusion and restlessness

But now they are irretrievable
And will stay in the past to remain in the hidden part of my world
I can never look back on those times except in my mind where memories become fragments in the passing of time
As they slowly fade with the years