Lost Love Letters

I started writing you a letter
But, then I changed my mind.
Coz when all is actually said and done,
Nothings really healed with time.
Was going to tell you of my day
And how much life has changed;
Since you’ve got nothing to say to me
Now your feelings rearranged.

I could pen the absence blistered,
As I sit amongst the trees;
I got out for a walk today,
I know you would be pleased.
Poor baby girl she struggles,
Misplaced her zest for life;
Think the loss of her big brother
Keeps twisting the knife.

Did you know I’m having therapy?
I know you’ll smile and say bout time.
But you’d never know the trigger was
Coz, you’re no longer mine.
Sometimes I can’t get out of bed,
I lose entire days...
Motivation? mostly ebbs,
What’s the point anyways?

Can imagine your mouth push up
Reading that last line
Growling “manifest your own luck!
All things heal with time”
Think that’s what I’m missing most today,
The way you used to care.
You’d never have left me here this way
Alone. Broken. So scared.

Well I’m signing off now, my love, it seems
My pen pushed on without me.
I’ll wait for you within my dreams,
Sincerely yours? Devoutly.
Xxx