My Life

I use to please everyone
Put their happiness above mine.
Be the glue of the group
And hold everyone together.
Being that person though
It’s draining.
You feel stuck.
Feel like you can’t let them down.
But the truth is,
I was letting myself down.
I go above and beyond
For the people I love.
That’s who I am.
But I forget about me in the process.

Trust the process.
That’s what they said.
How can I trust a process
That is chocking me
Cause me stress.
Hormones out of whack
Hairs falling out
The sky is falling
And I’m losing control.
The process is killing me.
What’s it given me in return?
Put so much time into this
And all I get is
the ifs ands and buts.
Selfish right.

Feelings.
Yeah let’s talk about that.
You want me to stay
You’re mad at me for leaving.
I’m finally doing me
And apparently that’s a sin.
Like i said,
Never belonged
And never will.
No matter what i do,
People are never happy.
But why is that my problem?
You can talk all you want.
You can be angry,
At the end of the day
This is my life.
So keep talking,
I’ll keep writing