Lately

Laying in the darkness
Don’t know what time it is.
These thoughts
They got me thinking.
I want to cry
But nothing has happened.
It’s nothing
The feeling
How can i describe it
Besides empty and chaotic.
Images flash through my mind.
Man I’m such a screw up.
No!
I’m great.
I’m just in conflict.
I’m just empty.
Can’t let this stop me
I’m going to make it
So many people rooting against me.

Laying in the darkness
Don’t know what time it is.
But I’m thinking of quitting.
I think I did it all.
Stood up,
Lead a group girls.
They called me president.
I dont want to finish term.
Life is calling me,
Telling me there’s better
Things, better opportunities
Out there for me.
This life can’t be everything.
The universe has spoken
It’s pushing,
It’s pulling,
Wants me to cross the threshold.
Take the leap
see a whole new realm.
Change is good,
It’s scary.
Embrace it maybe.

Laying in the darkness
Don’t know what time it is.
I’m a dreamer.
I got goals.
I’m not married
But I feel like it.
This is what i have.
This is what I’m good at.
Everyone who says
I’m not going to make it
They never felt divorced
The way I have.
That’s not the end though.
Ends are just
The start of new beginnings.
I’m going to see it all
I’m going to write it all.
And the people
They’re going to love it all
They’re going to hate it all.
But I’ll be happy with it all.