don't

 
I am an oddity...

simply put I don't fit with people
I really give an A for effort with F results
so I end up hurt a lot
vowing never again will I try

why bother just to be rejected?

I ache for friendship
but there is just something off about me
sometimes I blame other people
then other times I believe it's my fault

I make myself crazy
with the incessant chatter in my mind
it never quiets
I'm just a little off-kilter and people know it
I can't hide it...

there is something shiny about me
I try to blend in but I stick out
laid back and self-assured are they
needy and wound up is me

leave it alone I chide myself

don't try I say
you'll never be a fit
get it in your head they don't like you

just don't