A Mother's Love

They say a little white lie could never hurt a fly,    
But I dare to disagree, and Iím here to tell you why.  
See, I struggle to decipher, deception from the truth,  
And itís largely because I was lied to so early in my youth. †  
When your biggest role model is a strip pole model, †  
Slipping sleeping pills into baby bottlesó †  
Slipping out of the house and back to the club †  
To chase another hit of crack, or track another dub. †  
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Öbut what I needed was a motherís love. †  
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See, those little white lies became great big secrets: †  
A Titanic falsehood where loose lips could sink ships, †  
Until I was drowning in a sea of her lies... †  
No longer able to distinguish truth from disguise †  
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Mother... MOTHER! Couldn't you hear my cries? †  
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All I needed was someone to throw me a raft, to show me the path; †  
Instead, I suffered repercussions of a selfish mother's wrath. †  
And, though I've learned much about love and forgiveness, †  
She's relapsed again, so I've had to relive this. †  
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How could you do this again? †  
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My trust was crushed at such an impressionable age, †  
Like a domestic duck, I'm stuck, in this inequitable cage; †  
Fuck, just learning to manage my inevitable rage †  
Is an ongoing battle that I must steadily wage. †  
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Never having a good role model for trust and affection †  
Has permanently altered my perception, faulted by deception, †  
Now, I struggle with human connection, my dejection... †  
When she was supposed to be the one to ensure my protection. †  
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I live with this affliction as product of her addiction
Written by NewBeginnings
Author's Note
This one is really personal to me... Speaking on my trust issues and their roots; but, I'm learning and growing into a better person every day.

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