Swevens

"so scrying
is a definite
need for me. "

i wonder how many of us feel this way. the fear of actual intimacy. or maybe i'm just projecting. ha!

i own the skill for
Scrying and Pendulum
but have been lazy lately.

i also get prophetic dreams from time to time
but lately it's all pieces of my past and often i
wake up talking aloud to someone in the dream.

i don't fear intimacy; i actually prefer it in all of my close relationships but not many are willing, ready or know.  & so, lots of non-spiritual friendships.

so maybe you scry because you know others are afraid of intimacy.

real intimacy makes me nervous. while i prize it and want it, it is hard to trust people. so i'm wary.

Being a male empath
enables me to reach intimacy quicker
and understand the trepidation of
new potential friends.

i scry because i want to understand
or come into an understanding

interesting! i never hear my male friends call themselves, or admit to being, and empath. i can imagine that can either be a bonus in relationships. possibly a hindrance. depending on the relationship very, very interesting.

do you know the enneagram? i am a textbook five. i dive into interests and hold people at arm's length. i don't trust people with my emotions most of the time.

i just now took the test @  https://www.truity.com/
& i guess i am a 4.........
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Four

98% Match

Type 4 is known as The Individualist. Fours want to be unique and to live life authentically, and are highly attuned to their emotional experience.
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I discovered in 2012, that i might be an empath from my Holistic Dr.  I had gone in for a full battery of tests to find out why i'd been crying every night and when the tests all came up negative She suggested that i might be an empath.
i'd never heard that term and spent months digging and researching.  Eventually i came upon an empath support group on Facebook.

for me, being an empath would be so difficult. if not a downright nightmare. i am fully aware that feelings and emotions are important and it is important to let them out and express them and find outlets to do so. it's the sharing with others that i find hard. and i find it difficult to hear others. i know that sounds terrible. it just is what it is. so to feel others emotions and moods at all times....lord help me. i might turn in to a madwoman.

bless you!

the ennegram fascinates me! i have many type 4s in my life. you guys keep life interesting.

aaah You caused me to smile -- thank You,
Beautiful Sister

i am pretty certain i am a Heyoka empath but i don't share with too many as i am not sure but their Healing methods fit me to a tee.

Don't get me wrong -- it was not easy in the beginning and still today, as a schizophrenic, i struggle still.  However, i've grown leaps and bounds since 2012 and now (usually) only the mental illness stunts me from time to time.

The dreams are telling you to make more memories before it's to late

Yeah, i thought about that, as well.

But what gets me is why i haven't dreamed about my abusive turmoil childhood.

I thought maybe because i've already learned what i needed to.  
I swear, i DID have good memories when i was a child -- but come to think of it...........i was always alone.

I think the questions we ask ourselves are the most important. It's what we do with the answers that carry us. And dreams are our mind's way of getting our attention. I have several dream books and a journal just to track that.

i have journal'd my dreams ever since the first prophetic one i had (when i was nine)

i find that if i meditate for more than my daily 20 minutes the interpretation often comes to light