a handmaiden's song

 
my demons encamp just outside the perimeter
Father will you not banish them forthwith
and cleanse my spiritual pools?
wash me in the blood of renewal or I will be confounded

I am girded with truth however my mind confuses fact and fiction
will you lead me out of the dark
you spoke into the night and brought the light
it was the first thing you accomplished

I long to know your depths and perimeters
you are vast and endless
I am but a ripple in the pond

my heart aches I know the heavenly choir is singing tonight
I want to be there but I know you want me here
I pray I will accomplish the tasks you've set before me
Abba father my maker and immortal love
you shine in my darkness and bring me hope

I would that all my troublesome days were behind me but this is unlikely
I wish your garden dream had manifest without hindrance
I can hear the echos of conversation between you and the first Eve
she is still in your heart safely kept
I am one after her likeness
you hold a special place in your soul for your handmaidens

I weep that I've disappointed...being a woman is an honor
I want to be the beauty you intended
a flower in your garden
a blessing and sweet fragrance will you help me?

bring the latter rain lest I wilt
I love you...selah