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What Iíve quietly done, a pile of lies.

It started with good intentions,    
when I know deep down that our beginning is an end. † † †
Invaluable while not counting for much, but I tried. Hard. † † †
There are ways to repeat what has become of us, † † †  
a chorus of sighs, a fluttering of sound. † † †
I might get used to the emptiness after some time, † † †  
but Iíll often be on edge, pin footed without the sound of you. † †  
See here, what Iíve quietly done, a pile of lies. † † †
in the guise of love and love and more love. † † †
If all my fears went driving and all stirrings traveled on, † † †
Iíd still be here finishing things, still pruning. † † †
† † †  
My love, you've left me with no gateway; no golden ticket. † † †
My love, I am in need, I am in want, I am in hope. † † †
† † †  
My sheltered hideaway, my silent hurt. † † †
Are you admiring the view now, seeing all that it is full and plenty? † † †
Are you finally wanting me for yourself, † † †  
with this closing distance of one lunacy to another, † † †
forever wild and steaming, rioting and skimming the sky with resilience? † † †
I guess not, after all, we only ever stared at the stars † † †
backlit by moonlight, all those months, † † †
and most nights I wonder, half-handedly curious, yet struck with ebbing. † † †
† † †  
Love, let me, help me to see the worth, the riches, † † †
the flourish under this hibernating. † † †
For I am so terrified of being festered † † †
and alone at the end of this world, † † †
at the start of whatever is next without you.
heyycyanides
Written by heyycyanides (Joa)
Published | Edited 30th Apr 2020
Author's Note
Mood: All Good Things by The Weepies
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5rSJlBu5R_0
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