in the reflection of pain

 
hinder not the sleeping petals
quietly now tread lightly
in their sleepy time they will not stir
I fear much though I am not afraid

pain sweetens on the vine
grant me today serenity
though I deserve her naught

a thousand angels around me I can see for miles
yet I am blinded by the light show
still, candles burn brightly once more
shooting stars cause confusion

the parable of the fig tree
I pray I am yet covered
I feel bare, bereft and naked

hinder not the servent
a handmaiden of the host
it is my task to stay true
skating figure eights over my emotions lest I break the ice

brothers my brother there is only one like you
do you remember me still?
it pains me daily our distance
I have scorned your affection we are set at odds

I shake loose the cotton from my mind and die a little more each day
I am saddened deeply I wish this never was
how can I change history
are we uet doomed?
in the long run I matter not do I?
why then do I hurt so badly?

do you still love me?