Devil Eyes

I went back  
I ate crow  

I knew all the answers you wanted me to know  

I looked at you with love in my eyes,  
and I looked at him with love in my eyes.  
I was the one who put the past aside,  
On my hope.  
On my hope.  
You'll never know the hearts I laid bare,  
the days that you'll never believe how much I cared.  
The different hearts on different days,  
breaking always, and  
the years I cried thinking 'what if'.  
What if I was wrong?  
What if I was the problem?  
What if I could make myself belong,  
and just say that I was wrong?  
You taught me all the wrong lessons  
and you planted only weeds.  
And I refuse to blame you at all.  
I wish simply wish  I could touch your soul,  
and show it the love it needs.  
I've almost texted a thousand times,  
which is such a cliche thought,  
but you have never even lifted your fingers,  
because I was a calculated thought.  
I know you love me,  
I know its true,  
but your love is unwell,  
and suffocates me blue.  
I gave to you what I had to give,  
but you looked at askance,  
"but what else have you?"  
But all I have to give
to this misstepped dance
the broken love I learned from you
and we never stood a chance
I think the pain within you  
eclipses more pain than I'll ever know,  
and as my empathy implored me do  
subservience I offered to you too.
I wish with everything in my soul  
that I could look you in your beautiful eyes,  
the only thing that took its toll,
were the crocodile tears from your eyes.
 So I can't anymore  
And I won't even defend or try,  
because it is forevermore that
I'll be the one with the devils eyes.  
Written by Sterling7147 (__)
Published | Edited 4th Apr 2020
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