Embrace

 
Wish of no feeling, or emotion.
Running these legs to the ground,
while these feelings run mind to rot.
The punishment doesn't even feel like anything compared to the mental anguish of feeling incomplete.
Legs been beaten,
Still doesn't hurt as much as the thought.
Been running away from self for 10 years or so.
Guess it's about time to run from.....

  Alot more miles for this rattled mind,
 A lot more hurt to dig through before Joy is discovered.
PAIN was proudly earned,
Rest may never be deserved.
It works enough it will hurt enough, and maybe take the mind off of ....

Lil dog needs to become big dog quick.
Phases feel longer than they should.
Especially when you don't run away from them.
Lately these phases make me want to go.

Don't want to feel anymore yet
Rest isn't deserved.

Not A lot to keep the pillars steady.
Just a familiar and these legs.
Less and less,
Darker and darker,
To achieve so much more.
It just sucks doing it alone.
Some times these roadblocks are as stubborn as I.

Vintage Self.
Give me your mercury, let me have something to remember you by for when we part. Still no complete pages to this book.
Just chaotic scribble.

I want it to stop,
Sometimes bad,
but rest isn't deserved.

Pain.
A friend for when your mental needs a jolt.
A shock.
Electrocution.
I WILL earn it all.
That I deserve.