Girls

Where is the heart,  
Tearing me apart.  
She ripping me apart again.  
Tripping me apart again,  
Lost again.  
Legs loose.  
Head loose.  
Stuck in my feels.  
Clinched down to my heels,  
While it's my soul your words try to steal.  
Never felt so real.  

Flying hippie,  
Kinda trippy,  
If I trip off this tight rope,  
 
 
Feels like no hope.  
Feels I'm a constant no show.  
Can't get her,  
How the fuck I got you.  
Destroyed and damaged,  
I couldn't manage,  
These shackles never break.  
 
Chemical make the break.  
Break me away.  
LSD dreams capped off the night,  
7g Mario  
Eat until I'm retarded tho.  
I didn't want to be sorry.  
Never had  a chance,  
Time running out.  
Out.  
 
I find myself wanting to run out.  
Criss crossed in my head,  
Until I Jump  
 
Jump  
 
I'm a mad case,  
Bad case,  
Type of cat that leaves a  bad taste  
Head in a sad place.  
 
Jump  
Jump.  
 
Into her deep gaze.  
She tossed the hook.  
Jump  
Into days later where shit didn't change.  
Trying to do me with you on my mind.  
 
     I can't be me with you in my mind in this place. Never thought I could ever get out of this loneliness. Looking like I never will. I don't want to hear the bullshit. I run these legs into the ground trying to keep up.  
 
"Never good enough"  
 
     You couldn't even keep up. I don't know why I'm gripped to you. You don't remember how to love yourself and I stopped loving myself cause I might be feeling you girl.  
     What the fuck is this? I'm lost in my own head tripping over you. I Just want you to go away. I'm trying, trying not to fall.  
     I'm sick catching it while trying to balance. Listening, wanting. I must be sick. I try to hold on to my heart as it shatters apart. Something telling me to let go. What's the point? I'm a zone or two a away from tripping off this tight rope.  
 
Please girl go away. I can't seem to keep the last bits of my mind.  
 
 The only thing keeping me alive is tripping over.....