A Peculiar Love

We had a peculiar love for each other.
I do not think I shall ever find this love again.
We had the closest relationship.
You were an obedient lady,
But I did not take advantage of your compliancy.

You let me do anything that pleased me.
I could play in your long hair,
And I could sleep in your bed.
You allowed me to caress your legs.
I could hug you like a child,
And I could kiss you any time I wanted.

We ate and drank together,
Yet I felt that I did not actually have you.
I wanted you to be my wife,
But I knew it was not going to work.
This is what I was worried about,
And I made the worst decision of my life.

You felt that things were okay,
And you were puzzled that I was not satisfied.
You did not mind loving me in secrecy,
But I wanted more than that.
I could not continue to wait indefinitely,
So I decided to back away.

My impatience led to our break up.
You took it the wrong way,
And when I called you hung up the phone.
My feelings for you did not end there.
Darling, I wish you had seen that.

Even though I partially had you,
I felt much better at that time than now.
Our love was so peculiar;
Even now I cannot understand it.
The important thing is that I still love you,
And you have a reason to believe me.