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the new mr.mr

I've been called everything in the book  
but "the wrong choice " tho?  
that's a new one
and I felt its blow  
I know I'm not perfect  
far from special in any means  
but you'd think there would be someone for me  
to love me it seems  
it happens every single time  
I give everything I have to give  
then made out to be the villain  
my life's no life I wanna live  
I'm tired of the hurtful words  
sick of all the pain  
I'm in emotional turmoil  
I never should have tried again  
I'm losing my mind  
my newfound hope  
feeling like giving up  
don't know how to cope  
sitting here with tears rolling down  
heart empty  
growing cold  
stupid girl, can't u see  
they want u till they get you  
then get tired n move on  
you're always left confused  
wondering what you did wrong  
its nothing I did  
I'm just meant to be alone  
sad and miserable till one-day I'm gone  
should have known better  
right from the start  
don't even try to use my pathetic ass heart  
I can't stop replaying those words  
I was the wrong choice? I will never forget them  
always hear them behind your voice  
everyday is a struggle  
I already feel less than enough  
always forcing a smile  
can get be pretty tough  
especially when u want to cry  
I feel like my face is gonna crack  
if I start to lose it  
I just shake it off n bring it back  
keep my feelings bottled up  
put em on a shelf  
cause truth be told  
no one gives a damn how I'm feeling or felt  
love is just temporary  
now I'm beginning to understand  
you cant believe fairy tales  
a man is just a man  
they will put u down  
blame everything on you  
would they still do it if they could feel the pain  
I wonder if they even have a clue  
as I sit here feeling like shit  
I know I have to save face  
stand up and pretend  
like  I'm not a fk up n a disgrace  
tomorrow u will be sorry  
I'm sure you will apologize  
just know that I know how u feel  
these words were no lie  
they may have come from anger  
but they arose from somewhere  
they are ur true feelings  
stupid of me to believe you could actually care  
you will miss me when I'm gone  
it's always  the same  
you will wonder where I'm at  
and softly whisper my name  
I can't figure it out  
can't wrap my mind around it  
how u can love me one second  
then turn around and say such foul shit  
intentionally cause me pain  
use your tongue as a sword  
id rather take a beating  
than feel the pain of a word  
stuck on repeat  
a never-ending loop in my mind  
why can't I get it right  
just one fkn time  
I don't ask for much  
no money or fancy things  
just to be loved  
and enjoy the moments it is supposed to bring  
maybe hold my hand  
sleep next to me in bed  
hold me in ur arms  
if I'm lucky kiss my forehead  
just don't call me names  
don't put me down  
don't take me for granted  
cause I won't always be around!!!
Written by Addi82 (Addi)
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