Remeber

Remember the things not to be remembered,
memories of when I would cry and surrender
and take the blame for your false accusations.
You’d never hear me out, you had no patience?

You’d say that you love me and that’s how it seemed,
But when you turn on her, you turn on me.  
“I won’t do it no longer, I won’t sit and watch                  
I’ll protect her forever whatever it costs.”

The day that I found her curled up in a ball,
Rocking back and forth by the garden wall,
Clutching her knees she buried her face,
She knew that I knew, and she felt a disgrace,

“It’s because he loves you “she looked up and said,
“I’m bringing you up wrong you being mislead,
Just do what he says and don’t argue for me,
It’s easy my darling, now go watch TV”




I was 7 years old, and did not understand,
That this beast of a man had my mum underhand
But mum I grew up and got taller than you
You’d defended him and I’d get the abuse,

Do you hear me mum? In the room beside yours,
When just dad is between us, and old wooden doors,
I’d lie in my bed and awake I would stay,
Waiting for you to come take me away

You’d see how he hit me, just because he could
But you’d always just say it was for my own good,
One day it’s my attitude, the next something else,
But you’d both change your ways when around someone else,

When someone was over, or if we were out,
You wouldn’t raise a hand, wouldn’t curse scream or shout
They all believed the story we sold,
One big happy family never gets old,


But as soon as they left, and no-one was about,
You’d list everything mistake I’d made whilst out,
I’d try to defend myself, I’m just a child,
The abuse would continue this time, not as mild.


And I’ll never forget the things you’ve done to me,
The abuse that you brought, who you’d pretend to be,
You were mister amazing to anyone else,
Do whatever they wanted so no-one could tell,

Every time that I’d run you’d phone me up and say,
It won’t happen again, it won’t be the same way,
But you didn’t mean it, there’s no changing the fact,
You’ve raised you fist for the last time and I’m done with that,

Feeling down, and depressed, I refused to give up,
There’s was one person who told me I’ve had enough,
Made me feel special, like a belonged,
It’s only for him that I would struggle on,

That was my home before you’d bruise my face,
But I know when I’m gone I won’t miss this place.
There’s a chance I’ll miss him, we said it was love,
I think I’ve had enough now, I’ll watch from above.