Apart From my Heart.

I am apart from my heart sitting up alone in the dark. Writing my pain on the walls. I'm on my knees praying because on the inside I can feel my pain fall. And I cannot feel my heart beat anymore. Because it's not a part of me anymore at all. I'm a man standing alone. And fighting to stand tall. I miss my heart as if the sky was missing the rain. As if the rattling misses its chains. Yes my heart my everything come close so that I can hear you sing. Of all the wonderful pleasures that your love can bring. I am apart from my heart God help me. I need to feel it beat in my heart again. I want to hold it close. Because my eyes are filling with tears leaving my pillow soaked. Because this time I think I won't feel the beating of my heart of my heart again. To live without my heart. I don't know where to begin.  I am dying inside from the pain within. And there is no heart there to comfort or ease the hurt. So like a seed. I feel the need to be bury beneath the dirt. The blood in my body runs cold not warm. I am apart from my heart cause all the love has gone. Has gone. I have a hole in my chest where my heart belongs.