Can’t get away with it

I’m trapped in this prison of solitude trying to break out.
As a daughter of the King, I keep murder on my brain
Condemned
Society says tragedy is expected
Abuse seems ok because of this
Pushing, scratching, punching
I don’t know what I have done to deserve this kind of treatment
I wish every day that I could just get away with conspiracy to murder
They hurt me
Like paper cuts, I’m exposing my wounds
Love lost so nothing to lose but my freedom
Visiting prison websites to make sense of the fact that I can’t get away with murdering my family
It’s just tough when the voices haunt you at night and you wonder why they hated you all this time.
Therapy is helping
I keep my appointments because these thoughts are messing with my head
News stories trigger me
I think about my college degree
The people rooting for me
I can’t fail
Risking my freedom to murder
I can’t get away with it