MORE SOUL LEVEL CONFLICTED SUBCONSCIOUS PURGE  (sometime around Dec. or Jan., 2019/2020, STARBUCKS, Palm Springs, CA)

 
so much  
ever increasing  
critical mass density  
of both  
outer and inner  
chaotic pressures  
peripherally invasive  
negative  
toxic  
suffocating  
lower consciousness  
disconnected  
separated  
local and global  
societal  
environmental  
self and collective  
seemingly never ceasing
relentless insanities  
crimes against  
nature  
and mankind  
alike  
in the greater  
though still  
mostly unseen  
unrealized  
unknown  
sacred oneness  
of all  
continues  
to exponentially  
compile  
and compound  
moment to moment  
minute to minute  
hour to hour  
day to day  
day to week  
to month  
to year  
year after year  
unconsciously  
without end  
far beyond  
even all  
the blatantly gross  
horrifically known  
historically accrued  
unconscionable evidence  
there is  
permeating  
virtually everything  
throughout  
each lifes journey  
in this world  
today  
which i for  
the most part  
have long  
managed  
to cope with  
adapt to  
circumnavigate  
endure  
and somehow  
survive  
this long  
against all odds  
without  
ever completely  
selling out  
nor over compromising  
my consistently  
being  
and so far  
remaining  
as much  
as possible  
true to my  
innermost being  
and self  
which is  
at least  
to the degree  
i have  
up until now  
when suddenly  
here today  
im feeling  
so stiflingly  
so utterly  
trapped  
here in this  
strange  
swollen  
completely impotent  
feeling  
this vacuous limbo  
of unexpectedly  
juxtaposed  
semi disconnection  
with presently  
no discernible  
way out  
now left here  
feeling momentumless  
held hostage  
but by what  
with a sense  
of rapid atrophy  
ominously hovering  
here over me  
in this strange  
uncomfortable state  
of somehow  
inwardly feeling  
absolute lost  
empty  
stuck  
wherein it seems  
ive somehow  
now become  
so claustrophobically  
crowded  
so unwittingly corralled  
into this lightlessly  
airless  
dark corner  
momentarily cut off  
from my usually  
much more  
fluidly inspired  
natural  
creative flow  
wherein  
my innately  
transcendent  
true natures  
more bouyant  
long awakened  
light aligned  
spirit  
lifts  
and carries me  
around  
high above  
and beyond  
it all  
now presently seems  
for whatever  
unsettlingly disturbing  
mysterious reason  
to have vanished  
completely  
from all access  
and sight  
all morning  
and afternoon long  
here today  
so far  
where i can  
only intend  
and strive  
not to worry  
by trusting  
my guts  
natural instincts  
and acute intuitions  
inner suspicion  
that it all  
most likely  
may have something  
to do with  
that powerful  
full lunar eclipse  
last night  
from which  
im hopefully  
only processing  
whatever new download  
i sense  
it may have  
given me then  
in benevolent response  
to my open  
heartfelt  
true spirits  
soul level  
unified  
awakened  
invitation
to wholly
re spark
and reignite
all that which
i truly
am
transcendently
beyond
this hopefully only
temporary
inner sense
and lingering feeling
i presently
still have
in this strange  
uncomfortable state  
of somehow  
inwardly feeling  
momentarily lost
empty  
stuck
here now
with no relief
nor way
back out
into my unified
seamless
realignment
with the light
of all
that is
i am
anywhere yet
in sight