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Being an empath

I think about more than just me
I don't ever really sleep
I keep thinking about everyone's pain
That hits me pretty deep

I think of all the hate
I think of what I could do
But I can't think of anything
I don't have any clue

I know others better than I know myself
I don't know how to feel
I don't have any thing to say
I don't know how to heal

I'm not one who cares about what I need
I might be talkative but I'm not really speaking
I might seem ok but I am not
The truth is all I keep seeking

I want to forget about things
I want to try to be more than just this
I'm just a puppet with strings
And I can't seem to escape

I don't ever cry
I don't ever complain
I'm too busy asking why
To begin to feel

I feel all your pain
But mine isn't on my mind
It drives me insane
I don't believe in me

I'm not sad and afraid
I'm just tired
It won't seem to fade
So I stay awake

I'm not looking for my path
I keep thinking about things that don't concern me
I don't ever laugh
All I do is think

You ever have trouble going to bed
Ever toss and turn
Ever think 80 things in your head
You ever not rest

That's me every day
I don't ever dream
Thoughts never go away
I'm falling apart

I'm not a great man
I don't show compassion
I don't do what I can
I'm too busy questioning reality

I care for others
I would die for them
But exhaustion hovers
So I can't see the light

I don't have anything I'm proud of
Nothing I have done
I don't want love
Because I'm not wanting to be a burden

I am the invisible light
I am a falling star
I will be there in the sky
But yet I'm not ever seen

Growing up I don't remember having fun
I don't remember when I smiled
I don't have anywhere to run
I'm all alone

You might see me as sadness and emotion
I just see more pain than happiness
There is no magical potion
To change my heart

My heart is too big it feels like it will break
My mind can't stop analyzing the details
My soul is easy to take
And my body will be in pain

I'm not a man who can inspire
I'm not gonna make a difference
I'm just gonna add fuel to the fire
And burn it all away

I'm a danger to hope
I'm a danger to truth
I am a steep slope
I don't want anyone to get hurt

There is nothing for me to do
I can't change things
Hopefully happiness finds you
That's all that matters

You might think I lie
You might see me as a fraud
But my eyes stay dry
There aren't any tears left

I'm not going to cause my death
I'm not going to make a mess
I'm not going to end my breath
But I'm not going to follow my heart

I tried to be more
I tried to make myself known
But I'm fighting an inner war
And there is no way to win








Written by CosiestPrism273 (Jordan Kunkel)
Published
Author's Note
I'm an claircognizant empath. You probably don't know what that is and don't believe that empaths exist. I'm not going to try to make you believe. I'm tired of trying to be connected. Because it's impossible for me. It always has been.
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