Inside My Head

My eyes are sunken
Bags under them.
I'm tired, torn and anxious
But on the far side of advancement.
My heart grieves so tenderly
A wisp , a star, and then substantially
A tear for a broken, painfully healing heart
And I reach for the moon
The sun, the stars,  to find the light
Once here before the dark
My knees are shaking
They give way
And here I lay
Eyes now bloodshot
Fear gives in
And I remain in dismay.  
All my soul, all my heart
Each day IS on replay
I told everyone that I am no okay
And they see it
But they don't come running when I'm screaming
Help me escape
Can I go back to dreaming?
Everything seemed perfect , then
But in turn I let it all slip away,  again
I could have stopped all this suffering.