Words

I want to see the truth with my eyes
But my brain only sees the lies
I open my eyes and look for the sunrise
But instead I see something I don't even
recognize
I am truly someone in disguise
Because my true self is what I despise
My whole life I overanalyze
My thoughts are impossible to organize
Instead I begin to fantasize
My confidence leaves and my whole mind begins to paralyze
My abilities are hard to utilize
And then people begin to scrutinize
I start to apologize
But instead I antagonize
My hopes and dreams I jeopardize
My failures are all that my mind will televise
I try to make myself rationalize
But my thoughts won't synchronize
Instead myself I criticize
I'm the nightmare who will terrorize
I look at the bad and try to minimize
But the truth is my thoughts they simply demoralize
My mistakes I continue to penalize
And all this darkness is the thing that will traumatize
I wish my dreams were easy to visualize
But instead I think and my thoughts they begin to catalyze
The water is too high so my safety begins to capsize
At the end there is no surprise
I'm headed for demise
And the story of my life becomes impossible for me to revise