Stagnation

Manic in the moments
when I can't make up my mind
or figure out what the fuck to do.

Stuck in stagnation,
imagination hindered,
hard to stay immersed in what
usually interests me
maybe I just need a break
from trying to create and absorb shit
feeling like something must always
be written or read
and sometimes shit gets forced
or nothing gets done at all
and I sit there stuck..
Waiting for everything and nothing
perhaps a lil break is necessary
to reflect and recollect
and learn to not expect
myself to be able to be
constantly creative,
everyday attempting to
exceed my expectations
but things can get stale
and tired I feel if you try
to copy or one up yourself
and if you don't stop to do nothing
to look around for a second
eventually
 so it's okay if
you don't do anything for a bit.