BLINDNESS OF LONELINESS

Through this passage of life comes lessons to truly learn, yet some must be repeated over again down some crossroads that we must travel cause we didnt really understand, the subliminal messages in the beginning of that feeling you get deep down in your gut that we chose to disregard.                  
                                                                                                                                       For we are sometimes our own worst nightmare, that creates our own misdreams of life and love as it will be having one lose plain common sense to think clearly, falsefully blinding us by things that only we can see only within the darkness of our true loneliness, deep within our heart traveling through mere thoughts from our mind eyes. But yet we still seek as we search for that one connection of body and soul, even sometimes just to be with someone just to say i have someone in my life, but honestly and truthfully do you have them in honesty with truth and trust but yet each time those factors comes into view you question it even more so deeply.    
                                                                                                                                  For we have gotten to the point, that we even close our eyes to the delusional thoughts that everything is gonna be alright, but you know deep within your heart thats a lie telling by the puffy eyes you try to hide behind those dark shades of day and night. But there will come a time to think and disengage your feelings from your emotions, as darkness slowly begins to cover the skies as you search within you for there you rediscover the you, that you once were as a lost spiritual soul feeling trap within. An situation of no real love exchange of consistency nor commitment, no giving of true love with communications of understanding not even loyalty with honor or respect, yet it all looks so real in the beginning only becoming even more blinding by my own silence of my lonely tears that echos my true hurt along with my silent pain that goes seen and unseen through me.