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Who I am

I will ltell you my life and if you feel comfortable share yours. I had a cataplexy spell at age 4. From ages 5 to 9 was tested on. I was foundto have narcolepsy cataplexy and ADHD. I was actually the first person caught on video. My dad started abusing me physically at the age of 7. He abused me and my mother and I would try to protect her and my sister. I would make him beat me so they wouldn't get hurt. He was an alcoholic and gave me no love. Belts or thrown on the floor. He never gave me encouragement or appreciation. During a baseball game, I got out to end the game and he yelled at me. My dad was my coach and even when I was the best player he would treat me like one of the worst. I spent so much time just trying to get him to love me. They got divorced when I was 11. I moved in with my mom and sister and tried to cope. We would go see my dad but yet never really act like family. It was like a really bad movie. I grew up loving baseball but he caused me to not want to play it. Because I moved and the town I went to never gave me a chance. It was all about politics. I hit 450 and was amazing defensively my freshman year but yet didn't even get looked at for varsity. I understand not putting me on it but at least look at me. I'm a small guy but the truth is i had more passion then anyone. I would go hard every play and yet once I moved no one cared. I begin to doubt myself and my purpose. I was treated as if I didn't matter. I was so afraid I never tried to ask a girl out or have any friends because I felt as if nothing mattered. I would miss 50 days a year in elementary and yet had straight A's they never held me back. Keep in mind I was completely destroyed mentally and physically and yet still I achieved. I'm special but no one could see that. I graduated and I still feel alone but maybe one day I can find my ray of hope. Maybe I can find happiness.
CosiestPrism273
Written by CosiestPrism273 (Jordan Kunkel)
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